Over the past year I have gone back and forth, playing with the idea of closing down the blog. This is nothing new to those of you that actually follow it. I was VERY close to it not too long ago but got a lot of comments from people asking me not to close it. So I decided to give it another shot. I also decided to install a widget that counted unique viewers as well as returning viewers, just to see what kind of traffic the blog was bringing in. I was disappointed to see the results. For example, my roommates blog brought in about 40,000 viewers on Saturday. How many did mine bring in? 1,789 TOTAL viewers. The most the blog has brought in was 1,998.

Now sure, I may have pushed away a lot of viewers because of the donations. Do I regret ever asking? No. Why? As I said before, this is my blog and I can run it how I want. Should I have asked less? Sure. Maybe. But I only asked when I needed it. When I pushed for them, it was because I was freaking out about money. We have all been there and no what not having the money to make ends meet feels like. If you have never felt that, well, consider yourself one of the lucky ones. I only wish I never had to worry about my finances, but I do. I was close to being ok for awhile, but that was until I was let go from my last job. Any of the money I had saved up quickly disappeared. When I saw how little I had, and how fast it happened, I once again freaked out. So I reached out to all of you. Unfortunately only one person took the time to donate. I am very grateful for that person, don’t get me wrong. I was just really hoping there was someone out there that might be able to give me a little bump so I don’t have to freak out any longer.

Yes … I was offered a new job but, as mentioned before, it does not start until next week. I have only enough to cover my rent and then have very little remaining in my  checking account. I am still very unsure how I am going to make it until my first paycheck. But I guess that is not anyone’s issue but my own. The lack of responses showing interest in helping made that very clear. I have made it this far so I am sure I will figure it out one way or another. Just not entirely sure how as of yet. And yes … I am still very much freaking out about it.

I just don’t see any reason to keep the blog running. I don’t have the passion that I used to have and I don’t have the traffic coming in to make the blog worth keeping open. There are a lot of blogs out there and I am sure you all will find a replacement without any problems. I am sorry that it has come to this. This is my final decision.

To all of those that have helped me out over the years, whether it has been financially or emotionally, I want to say thank you so much for being who you are. I probably would not have made it through some of the things I encountered without your support. For those of you that never had anything nice to say but continuously came back … screw each and every one of you! You have really shown me how online bullying can negatively effect a person’s life. It is sad that people like you exist simply to make others lives hell. Lucky you for, I am strong willed and know I can’t fight through what you are saying to me. Unfortunately not everyone is as thick skinned. If you continue to be as toxic as you are, one of these days you are going to push someone to far. We have all seen how those scenarios end. I only hope that, some day, you see the error of your ways.

This blog was a big part of my life and I have learned so much from it. So thank you for being a part of something that was so much a part of me. My monthly renewal for HostGator was due on 5/15 and has not been paid. I believe they will give me a few days and will send me a notice that, within so many days, the domain will be shut down. So this will be the last post before that happens. If you donate one last time, the link is in the right hand corner. Or you can always email me at TheMaleSack@gmail.com.

I wish you all the very best in your lives.

But for now …

Hey there … hope you are doing well. Me … I am doing better. I finally received my offer letter for the new job. Signed it and emailed it back to them so that is now out of the way. I am very much looking forward to this new chapter in my life.

I still would really appreciate any donations you guys would consider giving. I am really short this month and will be until my next paycheck. I have a couple of bills that are now behind because I am short and I could really use the help in staying caught up. Like I said before, ideally I would like to come up with about $300. This will get me through until my first check happens. I have my monthly debt payment with CA EDD to pay and the same thing with the IRS. If I go into default with either of these, the next step is wage garnishment and I do not want that to happen. So anything you guys can manage, it would be GREATLY appreciated! I hope you can at least consider this. The donation link is in the right hand column or you can email me at TheMaleSack@gmail.com for other arrangements. Yes … I know some of you grow weary of me asking. Believe me … I hate asking, I really do. I just really need the help right now.

Anyway, thanks for reading all that. Enjoy tonight’s post! I am off to bed.

Hope you are having a good weekend. I am doing … ok. I could be better. I still have yet to receive my offer letter from this new job. He called me Monday and left a voicemail message offering me the position and said I would get the letter by the end of the week. It never came. I followed up with him via email on Friday and never got a response. I hope they did not change their mind. And I really hope there is not something on my background check, that I am totally unaware of, that would make them not hire me. I don’t think that is the case though. Never had anything happen to be concerned. It is just my mind making up scenarios. He was probably just busy or out of the office. I am sure I will hear something Monday.

Also, per my last post, if you can take a moment to donate, I would SO appreciate it. Aside of worrying about the offer letter, I am really concerned about my finances until the next paycheck. I could really use the assistance.

Anyway … enjoy the rest of your day! I will talk to you later!

You know that job I interviewed for last Friday? Well … I have been offered the position! I am super excited! Everyone I met was really nice and the company is constantly growing and doing well. So my future looks awesome there. Also, it is a full time position! No more contract to hire and worrying about my future! I feel very lucky to have been offered this position and am very excited about starting there. Yay!

The only downside to this is that it does not start until 5/21 and that puts my finances in a really,really tight pinch. That and the fact that my first check won’t come until the middle of June. So if you guys can find it in your hearts to donate, I would totally appreciate it. I would like to come up with about $300 to get me through to the middle of next month. I have a small amount of groceries I need to buy but I also need to purchase fare cards to get to and from work. So any donation would greatly help me out and I hope that some of you can do this for me.

Anyway … just wanted to keep you updated. Hope you all have a great Friday and an even better weekend!

If you are able/willing to donate … please take a moment to do so. I just finished paying off all the bills that are due and am a lot lower in funds than I had anticipated. I could really use the help right about now. $25 … $50 … $75 … $100 … you decide the amount. Any amount helps. I am still waiting to hear from the place I interviewed for on Friday and am remaining hopeful. I just need some help.

The donate button is in the right hand column of the page or you can email me at TheMaleSack@gmail.com for other options.

I truly appreciate any help you can give. Thank you!

I actually thought today was Saturday … my schedule is off. Being out of work makes all the days bleed into one. Anyway, I hope that you have a great week ahead of you. I am hoping for some good news before this week is up. Let’s cross those fingers.

So I had a job interview today and it went pretty well. I met with 3 different people and they all seemed to like me. What really made me happy was a couple of things the last woman I met with said. She said that I sound very confident when I am speaking which is a great quality to have. She said she does not give compliments often so they mean a lot when she does. I found that compliment odd only because I always feel like I sound like I doubt myself. I mean … I do always doubt myself on so many levels. But it was nice to hear. She also said that I was very mature for my age. Not sure how old she thought I was. But it was nice to hear as well. I will know something by the end of next week. But this one went very well and I am hopeful. As always, I will keep you updated.

Have a great weekend guys and enjoy tonight’s pics!